Just before she shocked everyone by filing for divorce from her husband of 7 years, Brandon Blackstock, Kelly Clarkson sat down with Glamour magazine and talked about the pressures and stress of time in quarantine.

Kelly said, “Honestly, I have been on an emotional roller coaster. This has been really hard as a working parent, because I’m still doing all the same jobs. It’s been exhausting honestly, cooking every meal and cleaning nonstop after toddlers and teenagers! Everybody’s learning from home now and the teaching! So, everything has been crazy.”

She added, “I’ve definitely reminded people that I work with I’m doing the best I can. I’m literally holding down so many things right now. Not only jobs, but even things where we usually had a lot more help. We are fortunate, so I’m not complaining in that sense, but I’ve definitely had to people that I work with, ‘I’m not an absentee mom. I’m a full-on mom.’ I already have abandonment issues, so I don’t want to pass those down.”

Clarkson officially filed to end her marriage to talent manager Brandon Blackstock on June 4.

The couple got married in the fall of 2013. They have two children, River Rose, 5, and Remington Alexander, 4.