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Billie Eilish performs onstage at the 2020 ALTer EGO at The Forum on January 18, 2020 in Inglewood, California.

Leading up to her first appearance and performance at the GRAMMY Awards, Billie Eilish spoke to Gayle King about her career and being the youngest artist ever to be nominated in all four of the major categories.

She also opened up about her mental health and shared with Gayle her struggles dealing with the pressures of fame, and how it caused her to isolate and fall into a deep depression. Per E! News, she confesses that she not only self-harmed, but didn’t think she would live to see her 17th birthday. “I didn’t ever think I would be happy again, ever. I don’t want to be too dark, but I genuinely didn’t think I would make it to 17.”

When Gayle asked “But did you think that you would do something to yourself,” Billie replied with “Yeah.”

Billie also gets candid about a specific time when she struggled with thoughts of suicide. She says, “I remember there was a window right there. And I, God. I remember crying because I was thinking about how the way that I was gonna die was I was gonna do it.” Billie also says, “I was so unhappy last year. I was so unhappy, and I was so joyless.” Billie does add that she’s been slowly coming out of feeling depressed for the past six months or so.

Billie is up for six at the upcoming GRAMMY show on Sunday (January 26). She will also perform.

Watch highlights of the interview below.

Billie Eilish: "Nobody that knows me thinks I'm a dark person"

The multiple Grammy-nominee with the #1 hit "Bad Guy" says she is coming out of the "joyless" and "torturous" feeling that clinical depression and unwanted fame brought her. In this intimate conversation with "CBS This Morning" co-host Gayle King, Eilish and her brother, Finneas O'Connell, discuss the creative spirit behind her debut album, "When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?"

Billie Eilish is source of support for fans who are struggling

Billie Eilish is up for six Grammys, and she's still a teenager. She has made her struggles known to her fans, often referring to them in her lyrics. She also makes it a point to be a source of support for those who are struggling themselves.